Rudy likes
fires and starlight. He likes streetlights, the smell of
petrol. He likes sabotage and chance and artificial worlds.
Something could go wrong: the bomb blows up in the
terrorist’s hands, the fire claims the arsonist, the
disease cures itself in greedy self-sufficiency. A crowd
gathers—Rudy likes a crowd, aghast, in shock. Mothers hug
their damaged children. An office worker sinks to the
pavement clutching his beaten heart. Policemen try to
disguise their own panic by bullying civilians who show no
fear or guilt. We do not think so little of Rudy that
something should go wrong.
Martin walks through his own city like a tourist. There is
no hierarchy to his perceptions. Nothing has any meaning in
itself, it is all potential. He looks up. Vauxhall, by the
river. A tall 1960s office building. A malicious young man
at a high window could become a killer by dropping pennies
on to the heads of passers-by, the queen’s head drilling a
path through a shopper’s brain. That man at the bus stop,
hair hidden beneath a knitted hat, face behind a goatee,
holding a plank of wood, could so easily lift the plank out
horizontally into the road, a cyclist slammed in the chest
falls into the path of an oncoming car, which twists to
avoid him and collides with a motorcyclist who crashes into
the windscreen of the car coming the opposite way, and the
motorcycle has crashed into the front of a bus, which is
slowly toppling over, while the bicycle, operating in a
parallel, faster dimension, is skittering on its side along
the pavement, knocking over old men, baby buggies, women
who, just an innocent second before, had been speaking on
mobile telephones. Rudy likes violent chains of events.
There is no such thing as accident in Rudy’s world. Rudy
has plans for him. Rudy has plans for the city and Rudy
intends for him to be part of it. He wants to be found but
he is challenging Martin to do it. Everything is connected,
by a malicious thread that leads back to the perpetrator’s
hands. Can You
Help Us?
Rudy loves clocktowers, which means, of course, that he
might always intend them harm. I used to watch him smoking
cigarettes in the shade of the clocktower at Highbury Barn.
Lapiz lazuli clockface. Rudy cupping the cigarette in his
hand, practising a scowl to offend babies and matrons, a
leer to impress the girls. The scowl was more reliable in
its effects than the leer. Martin was less dramatic, more
ordinary, and girls always liked him more. Sometimes at
night Rudy would throw bottles at the clockface, broken
glass spinning around his feet.